Three words I would use to describe motherhood. Overwhelmed, exhausted and touched out.

Something I struggle with daily is the expectation that you have to be present all the time as a parent. The days where I’m sick but can’t rest because I still have to care for the kids who are often sick themselves.

It’s completely overwhelming.

I desperately want to sit down and have time to myself but then I feel guilty for sitting on my phone in front of the kids and not paying them attention. They don’t see the hours I spend working, cleaning, planning and keeping things going. So when they say can you play with me, I know they need that interaction too.

Being a parent can be exhausting.

It’s monotonous and repetitive and emotionally draining. I am always mindful of how I respond in every situation, super cautious of not wanting to f*ck them up as adults. I try my best yet I often feel like a failure.

The fact you can love your kids so much but also equally need a break from them, seems so contrasting but they wholly exist together. Some days I feel like I work all day, constantly switching from one thing to another and my brain has so much going through it I can’t think straight.

I can’t stop thinking about what needs to be done and the mess is never ending. I get so touched out by always having people on me, I feel like I’m on edge.

Despite it being so challenging, I would never change it. I know it’s not forever and I’ll miss these days one day but for now this is my truth.

Being a mum is hard and having to balance everything is almost impossible.

You’re not alone.

Lydi x